Wow! What a good prompt for me today. I often get the feeling of being “in between” things. Like I’m not quite finished getting to where I need to be. This usually manifests itself in me justifying my messy house “I’ll get it done when I have the time on Friday” or my lack of a set Prayer Rule– “I’m still getting over depression, God understands”, countless other small tasks that just don’t make my list. I feel like at some uncertain point in the future I will suddenly stand up and become a “responsible adult” but for right now, I’m just getting used to adulthood, motherhood, stay-at-home-hood, special-needs-parent-hood, etc. etc.
It is true that I have been recovering from a severe depressive episode and I was literally incapable of doing some of these things for a long time. I need to go easy on myself, but the truth is, we are in Eternity right now! I am right in the middle of it, not in between one important time and another. I should really take this reminder and focus on the reasons the tasks I put off are important to me— they help sustain me in my good place of mental health. I love having a clean house. I feel great when I take the time to reflect on God. I enjoy getting dressed in the morning and going out for coffee. So why am I stuck “in-between”?
This is a post for Five-Minute Friday at Lisa Jo Baker’s website: http://lisajobaker.com/five-minute-friday/